yodathedark: (Default)
2019-12-09 02:43 am

Things what I doesn't like.

  • Curry
  • Coconut
  • Nuts
  • Cherries
  • Pomegranates
  • Shellfish
  • Tinned Tuna
  • Some Fish
  • Aubergines/Eggplant
  • Courgette
  • Celery
  • Onion
  • Tomato Sauce
  • White Wine
  • Real Ale
  • Real Beer
  • Whiskey
  • Blue Cheese
  • Cream Cheese
yodathedark: (me in dress)
2011-06-07 04:27 pm
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Modelling

Hey folks, breaking the silence to ask a favour.

Hannah ([livejournal.com profile] er0_0), a friend of mine (and of some of you) is taking part in a modelling competition and needs more votes to get to the next stage.

She would really appreciate it if you could lend her a hand by voting for her - takes less than a minute and you don't need to register for anything.

The link is http://www.next.co.uk/model-competition-2011/vote-for-me-id0abqgb1q/

Thanks, Yoda.
yodathedark: (black sheep)
2011-05-27 09:51 am

Update

Been ages since I actually posted on here.

So, an update.

Well, since the beginning of the year, I got a job (minimum wage, middle of Edinburgh, doing web sales) then another job (£14k, Livingston, doing web development), so that front's not too bad.

I've failed at relationships utterly, so have given up on the idea, at least for now.

Still depressed, still on drugs, still up and down a fair bit.

Doing less LARPing than I was, but more tabletop. Thinking of getting back into LT. We're also looking at going down to DuD at some point, and we're having discussions about setting up a 40k LARP in Scotland (if you're interested, let me know).

Been going to Geas this last year and it's been good to get out of the house and meet people. May even try running a game next year - if I'm not still burnt out.

So, that's work, relationships and social life covered. Don't think I missed anything major...
yodathedark: (biohazard)
2010-08-30 12:37 am

Offline

For those of you that hadn't noticed, I've gone offline.

Actually disconnected. If you want to get a message to me, I advise texts or emails. My Gchat is offline, and I'm blocking all calls.

Don't expect responses unless it's important.
yodathedark: (sad bunny)
2010-08-22 09:36 am
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So, no, I'm not happy.

I'm not happy with how things went down.

I'm writing this the morning after, on Thursday 22nd July 2010. Not whenever this actually appears on your friends list.

Read more... )
yodathedark: (Default)
2010-08-13 09:30 am
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A long long time ago...

You know, I'm reminded of the very first gaming society I joined. They were called the Imperial Order - a Star Wars gaming group that primarily did video gaming. There was an RP element to it and they added a separate RP group not that long after the events of what I'm about to retell.

Now, I was in Shetland, on a half-decent computer for the time, over dial-up. So there was no chance I was going to be doing multiplayer gaming. But I enjoyed the society, the social aspect, the roleplaying of being in character in the chat room, and on the forums. This was the sort of place where everyone knew you by your character name (and you only ever had one character).

I enlisted several of my friends to join this mostly-American society. There were people from all over the world, it was quite successful really - less than some groups, but still one of the more well known groups out there doing this kind of thing.

Now, as it turned out, this society contained some gits. I wanted to see what some of the other groups were like, and so I joined some of them as well - I didn't do much with them, and went back to the IO. I also set up my own side one (with the Rebels) - just a small thing, me and the previously-mentioned mates.

As it turned out, I wasn't the only one in multiple groups. One of the high-ups in the IO was as well, and noticed my email address being used on both IO and EH stuff. I think they also noticed my side Rebel group.

The first I heard of this though, was much later.

There were weekly meetings where reports were given, awards handed out, etc. I was still in school (this was 2001), and the meetings were on a Monday night at 5PM EST, or 10PM GMT to you and me. So I wasn't exactly allowed to go.

I was prepped to become the XO of my squadron, and the squadron leader had sent me a message saying he couldn't make it and could I do the report instead. So I asked, pleaded, begged my mum to let me stay up for the meeting - just this once. She relented, and I stayed up to attend.

The squadron leader was there. I PM'd him and asked him if he still needed me to do the report. He asked me to hang around. I said I had to go, and he said it was important - hinted at promotion, so I stayed.

The important thing I needed to be there for? Being called forward, accused of treason and executed - kicked out of the society.

Just in case you missed that, I was called to a public meeting of the society, in front of everyone, when they knew I couldn't usually make it, and had my character - myself, since we didn't really differentiate - executed for dabbling with other groups.

That night ended with tears.

For some reason, this tale came back to me tonight. I can't think why. Not like it seems to be happening all over again, or anything.
yodathedark: (Default)
2010-07-14 09:36 am
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(no subject)

For Dawn:

I write like
Stephen King

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!




For Hollow

I write like
Stephen King

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!




For Power

I write like
James Joyce

I Write Like by Mémoires, Mac journal software. Analyze your writing!


yodathedark: (evil looks good)
2010-06-14 03:37 pm
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Antagonism

The point has been raised that I have a lot of antagonistic characters. I'm not sure I agree, but I want to do a run down anyway.

ETA: I'll be fair, the comment was "characters with antagonist views".

Laine (Lost)
Laine is stubborn, angry and honest. He doesn't trust most other Lost (they've given him no reason to), and he dislikes a lot of things - seeing them as just making yourself out to be more like Them. This includes Wyrd, Contracts, Entitlements and Courts. And he doesn't like swearing himself to follow others - that's just swearing yourself into slavery. He won't stop anyone else from going against his opinion. And he keeps his opinion to himself for the most part. No one's interested in what he has to say, so why bother saying it?

He joined Summer for several reasons, the most obvious of which was that there was no one else. And he did it for the good of the Freehold because he'd found out about a crisis and he was going to be fucked if he was going to have everything fall apart because of it.

He has deep-seated principles, and there are only a few things that will make him break them. Other characters' opinions aren't one of them. He is steadfastly and obstinately Courtless - and he won't take threats about his choice lying down.

But when it comes down to it, he'll do just about anything for his mates, or for Dunasheen if its needed.

ETA: He also doesn't trust anyone who needs to be under a pledge to keep their word. In Lost society, people who don't keep their word shouldn't be trusted anyway. After all, if they'll break their word so casually, can you guarantee they won't just break a pledge as well?


Nathan (Forsaken)
He's an arrogant, pissed off, headstrong cop who doesn't see why werewolves should get away with mortal law. On the other hand, he's reached a point of "if I don't see it, it didn't happen". He's also arranging cover-ups and finding information.

But he doesn't get on with people outside of Edinburgh, and he has no reason to. That's outside of his territory, outside his city - why the hell should he care? He's signed up for the Hunt and that's the only good reason he's really been given to step outside Edinburgh for the most part.

He's not a social character really. He's blunt, but he's honest, and he won't mess you around.


Charlie Wax (Requiem)
Now, Charlie is an antagonistic motherfucker. He's designed to cause trouble, make people think about what they're prepared to do, and put some viciousness into the game. I made a pledge to myself when I wrote Charlie - that I would never back down from doing something because it was a PC or a friend.

He's supposed to be a monster, he's supposed to be horrific. If he gets killed, he gets killed, but I'm going to see how far I can push things first.


Henderson (Awakening)
Now, Henderson I would never have said was antagonistic. He's a social character, open and friendly, looking to make the world a better place from the ground up.

On the other hand, he seems to have some fairly strong views on things. This has come out more this year as I've been playing through him, and it's caused issue.

Thing is, that's how it's supposed to be for him. He's fueled by passion, and fire burns within him. He's a firestarter, a rabble-rouser. He can make people march on Parliament with a few words - that's the type of character he is. He's an activist, and he knows where he's heading.

But fire goes where it will, and it's hard to control. As we witnessed at the last Anglesey game.


Rocker (Created)
Rocker is an individualist. He doesn't really get other people, and he's not one for making the first move. He really only cares about his music and his friends/Throng.

He's prone to anger and outbursts of rage on occasion, but for the most part he's happy to sit on the sidelines watching.

On the other hand, he's a Promethean. He's strange - go figure.


Spook (Mortals)
Spook was a complete headcase. Bugnuts crazy. And worse if you hit his triggers. I enjoyed Spook, I enjoyed playing Spook - he had a very different take on the world.

I can't say that everyone else felt the same.


You know what? That's my primaries done (well, Laine's not a primary, but...). I'm bored of this now, and I can't be arsed to continue. That's my current primaries though - I've lost a couple that weren't antagonistic at all. At least not until William's buttons were pushed.

I wrote this out, and now, now I'm not sure I want to post it. Because my own stubbornness is kicking in and I don't see why I should have to justify my characters to anyone.

I'm sick of all the bullshit that's happening right now, and I'm half-tempted to say "fuck you all" and leave the society. I won't because in the end, either someone will convince me to stay, or I'll decide that the friendships are worth the bullshit. But I'm sorely tempted.
yodathedark: (batman!)
2010-05-23 12:42 pm

Characters and Flaws

Following the challenge of [livejournal.com profile] annwfyn where she asked people to list:

1) a proper character flaw
2) an example of behaving badly in background/with NPCs
3) an example of behaving badly with PCs
4) a true, but uncharitable description
5) and a redeeming feature

of their characters, I've decided to give it a go with my many characters - one from each venue. At least for now.

They're under here... )
yodathedark: (biohazard)
2010-05-07 07:52 pm
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Proportional representation

Just did some maths about proportional representation.

Quick primer: proportional representation (PR) is where seats on government are decided by national vote share, not number of seats.

Now, I was for this before I did the maths - anyone can see it's an unfair system currently. But here's the brief run-down of how it worked out.

Con: 235 seats (36.1%)
Lab: 189 seats (29.0%)
LD: 150 seats (23.0%)

So we can already see that the Tory's have lost a significant number of seats (235 compared to 306). Labour are down 69 seats, but the Lib Dems are up 93 seats.

Onto the smaller parties, and we still see significant change.

DUP: 4 seats (0.6%) ~ -4
SNP: 11 seats (1.7%) ~ +5
Sinn Fein: 4 seats (0.6%) ~ -1
Plaid Cymru: 4 seats (0.6%) ~ +1
SDLP: 3 seats (0.4%) ~ +0
Green: 7 seats (1.0%) ~ +6
Alliance: 1 seat (0.1%) ~ +0
UKIP: 20 seats (3.1%) ~ +20
BNP: 12 seats (1.9%) ~ +12
UCU: 2 seats (0.3%) ~ +2
English Democrats: 1 seat (0.2%) ~ +1
R-U Coalition: 1 seat (0.1%) ~ +1
TUV: 1 seat (0.1%) ~ +1
Christian: 1 seat (0.1%) ~ +1
ICHU: 1 seat (0.1%) ~ +1
TUSC: 0 seats (0.0%) ~ +0
SSP: 0 seats (0.0%) ~ +0
Others: 7 seats (1.1%) ~ +6

Now, these numbers aren't perfect. They don't take into account the actual percentages for independent candidates or the smaller parties. (They also total to 653 seats instead of 650), but they represent the will of Britain better than the actual seats do.

Now, the BNP and UKIP might have 32 of the seats by my count, but they also have 5% of the national vote behind them. Are those 32 seats going to be able to achieve much without winning the local seats as well? Not really.

But what PR does mean is that the smaller parties are better represented. The Green Party, under PR, instead of having just 1 seat in the Commons, would have 7. SNP would have 11 instead of 6.

What PR has done (using yesterday's election results) is take 57 seats from the big parties (after more fairly distributing them between them) and given those to the smaller parties who weren't being represented - despite holding significant vote share.

So even though BNP and UKIP get 32 seats from PR, I'm still in favour of it. Giving power to the people who actually represent the people isn't a bad thing.
yodathedark: (sad bunny)
2010-04-03 02:44 pm

Bad experiences

This is something that's been plaguing me for a long time now. And I have to say, I think I've reached the point where I feel comfortable posting it online.


At least, I feel comfortable enough to take the leap and post it. As I type this, I'm not sure what I'm going to do with it. I'm typing it on my Tumblr blog and I plan to post it on my Livejournal as well, but I don't know if it'll be friends-only there or not yet. Depends how I feel when I get there I think.


After all, Tumblr is open to all, so why not post it to everyone on LJ as well? One of the answers to that is of course that only a few people even know about the existence of my Tumblr, so anyone potentially reading it would likely be a stranger, and for some reason that's more comfortable than having lots of my friends definitely reading it.


But I will take the plunge. I'll broadcast this out, via my Twitter to my Buzz as well, though I will remove it from my Facebook. Friends are one thing - family are another. And there are young folk who would see my FB.


Anyhow... to get to the matter at hand... If you don't want to read it, don't feel you have to. I just want to put it out there.Read more... )

yodathedark: (sad bunny)
2010-03-24 12:29 pm
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Yay...

So far today, I have resisted the urge to curl up into a ball and cry.

And damn I wish I didn't have to.
yodathedark: (spook)
2010-03-18 09:24 am

A Letter

To every ST that I've made despair.
To every ST that I've made groan.
To every ST that I've made grin.
To every ST that I've confused.
To every ST that I've made double-take.
To every ST that's asked if I'm crazy.
To every ST that I haven't done this to.

Thank you, thank you all.

Thank you for putting up with the crazy, the insanity, the general chaos and my general quirks. Thank you for putting up with everyone else' too. Thanks for the great games that wouldn't exist without you.

Just in general, thank you.

- Yoda.
yodathedark: (alucard)
2010-03-18 12:25 am
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Who knew?

Lengths I am apparently willing to go to for my characters...

  1. Wearing nothing but tattered rags, fake blood and bandages. In October. Outside. Barefoot on tarmac, gravel and mud.

  2. Applying food colouring to my eyes for the right effect.

  3. Using PVA glue for scar effects. Over my eyebrows.

  4. Wearing uncomfortably warm/cold clothing because it's in character.

  5. Ignoring severe pain in order to keep roleplaying.

  6. Spending half an hour on makeup, only to leave within an hour of timing in.

  7. Spending half an hour applying elaborate makeup that's then hidden under clothing so no one ever sees it.



And I've probably missed some. At least I haven't given myself hypothermia yet...
yodathedark: (batman!)
2010-03-11 10:00 pm

Interview and stuff

So I had an interview today, and I figured I may as well leave an impression.

Pinstripe shirt with rolled up sleeves, black waistcoat, trilby, black leather attache case. While they make me a cup of tea, I pull out the "Top Secret" file from my case and put it on the table next to the trilby.

It went well, we talked about the job, and about other things. Among them IoD. Apparently they had a look at the website and they're really curious about it - so I could end up recruiting my new bosses if I get the job.

While we were discussing that, I pulled the before/after photo from the Top Secret file and showed it to them - they were a bit shocked to say the least - "You look like an entirely different person!"

Still, I'm hoping I made a good and lasting impression. It seems like a really nice job, even if it is Future Job Fund. The position is as an Assistant IT Tutor with the Edinburgh Chambers of Commerce. 30hrs/wk, £6/hr, normal office hours. And it comes with free training as a Microsoft Office Specialist. Since that's one of the things I'd be helping teach. :)

I should hear on Monday whether I've been successful. They were interviewing four people for it today and were going to discuss things tomorrow.

So, wish me luck. :)
yodathedark: (Default)
2010-03-10 01:21 pm
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Hair Today, Gone Tomorrow.


And I cut it off. Took it down to stubble, then shaved that off too. I did it early for a few reasons, but what's important is that it's going to a good cause. And so's the over £450 that was raised since January.

Thanks for your support,

- Yoda
yodathedark: (Default)
2010-03-08 01:12 pm
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Haircut

The day of the hair cut grows ever nearer. And there is a certain dread weight about it.

Still, I do need to prove Kev wrong...
yodathedark: (Default)
2010-03-08 01:09 pm
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Twitter Updates

I just disabled them. Maybe I'll put more actual updates on here. Maybe I won't. Who knows?

Who cares?

Ho hum, la-di-la-laa....
yodathedark: (kira)
2010-03-08 12:02 am
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yodathedark: (kira)
2010-03-07 12:02 am
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