yodathedark: (biohazard)
I can't remember anything
Can't tell if this is true or dream
Deep down inside I feel the scream
This terrible silence stops it there

Now that the war is through with me
I'm waking up, I cannot see
That there's not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please god, help me

Back in the womb it's much too real
In pumps life that I must feel
But can't look forward to reveal
Look to the time when I'll live

Fed through the tube that sticks in me
Just like a wartime novelty
Tied to machines that make me be
Cut this life off from me

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please god, wake me

Now the world is gone I'm just one
Oh god, help me

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please god, help me

Darkness imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell

Landmines has taken my sight
Taken my speech
Taken my hearing
Taken my arms
Taken my legs
Taken my soul
Left me with life in hell

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Old music

Oct. 22nd, 2009 04:19 am
yodathedark: (sad bunny)
For those of you don't know, the majority in fact, a friend of mine from high school - Joffe Abdulla - killed himself on the 1st of September. As it turned out, I ended up taking this fairly hard as everything else went wrong for me as well.

I've been listening to some old music - the stuff I was listening to when I was at school with Joffe and I found this song. I thought I'd share it. It seems appropriate really.

OPM - Brighter Side

Sometimes
I forget that you're not here
Can't believe it's been a year
Since you flew away
And I never got to say goodbye
Good times
Hangin' out til the break of dawn
Listening to Bob
And singin along
Every little thing it's gonna be
It's gonna be all right...

I know that you're gonna fly
Somewhere brighter on the other side
And one day I'm gonna be there too
Where the sun is shining and the water's blue
I know that you're gonna fly
Somewhere brighter on the other side
I know you're somewhere where you're finally free
You'll always be a part of me
Like the moon is to the sea

They say you don't know
A good thing till it's gone
But I got to say they're wrong
I knew you were a good friend
A good friend all along
I wish the world wouldn't be so cold
As to take such a beautiful soul
But despite it all I know we gotta carry on

I know that you're gonna fly
Somewhere brighter on the other side
And one day I'm gonna be there too
Where the sun is shinin and the water's blue

I know that you're gonna fly
Somewhere brighter on the other side
I know you're somewhere where you're finally free
And you'll always be a part of me
Like the moon is to the sea

I know that you're gonna fly
Somewhere brighter on the other side..
Always be a part of me...

If I could rewind time
Then I'd like to let you know
Just one thing before your time go
That every moment you were living was a blessing to me
And I saw inside of you things that others couldn't see
Now people put you down for the way that you lived
But those people never knew you the way that I did
Don't be ashamed of who you were or how you died
I know you just wanted to find the brighter side...

I know that you're gonna fly
Somewhere brighter on the other side
And one day I'm gonna be there too
Where the sun is shining and the water's blue
I know that you're gonna fly
Somewhere brighter on the other side
I know you're somewhere where you're finally free
And you'll always be a part of me...

I know that you're gonna fly
I know that you're gonna fly

Laptop

Apr. 15th, 2009 02:39 pm
yodathedark: (Default)
I read things on the Acer website wrong. So am currently on phone to Acer. Long hold time...

Crappy hold music. At least this might mean not being able to find the receipt isn't a terrible thing.

And I was on hold so long they put me to voicemail. Which was full. Hmm...

*phones back*
yodathedark: (Default)

So what have I done since my last post?

  • Worked on my dissertation - actually put in solid work-hours!
  • Went out drinking for my birthday. Had a small meal as well with close friends.
  • Read many books, watched much anime, seen lots of films.
  • Bought all my Christmas presents at the Christmas Market
  • Bought many custom dice
  • Come back home for Christmas
  • Had repetitive bouts of chronic back pain. (Have prescription painkillers for it) (Should really go and take some now)
  • Created a talking chatbot somewhat representative of Jamie Gabbay
  • Gone practically vegetarian at many points
  • Listened to A Very Scary Solstice
  • Gotten annoyed at the WGA strike meaning my TV watching habits have gone to pot. Not that I disagree with the strike, but I like my American TV…
  • Done lots of lovely work at McDonald’s - especially with doing 11 and 12 hours shifts…
  • Resisted the urge to buy lots of stuff from Liam’s
  • Started doing Camarilla - or more to the point Changeling
    • Also did the Cam Regionals as an NPC and played ghosts the entire time I was there :D

Also, anyone got a suggestion for a quote to go on my Gamers t-shirt?

Oh yes, and have yourselves a scary little solstice!

Originally published at DoC 3.0. You can comment here or there.

yodathedark: (Default)

It’s a bit hard to tell…

The last couple of weeks have been fun. For those of you who didn’t know, I’ve been being a Freshers Helper. Lots of fun!

It really was as well. The days have blurred into each other; there was free food, drink and sweets; there were many fun people; lots of fun events and lots of cool freshers.

Though I am partially deaf after Live Music on Thursday night - need to go arrange an doc’s appointment for that.

Even so, I’d say this is probably the best start to an academic year I’ve ever had. :D

And they let me into 4th year - the fools!

Starting my game tomorrow - or at least the character gen. Should be lots of fun.

Originally published at DoC 3.0. You can comment here or there.

yodathedark: (Default)

While at work yesterday, a thought struck me - I know! - and I realised what my first fandom was.

It wasn’t Star Wars despite what you might think. But it has defined who I am and certain parts of my personality since I ran into it.

Either that, or there’s a fecking huge coincidental relationship between it and my personality.

What I believe to be my first fandom was in fact Gladiators - you know, the TV show where ex-wrestlers fought “normal” people for the entertainment of the masses.

Some evidence:

The first CD I recall owning myself? The Gladiators TV Show Soundtrack (with such classics as “Holding out for a Hero”, “The Final Countdown”, “Wild Thing”, “Bat Out Of Hell”…) - i still has some of favourite pieces of music on there. And it’s going to be pretty much what got me into rock and metal proper.

Favourite animals? Wolves, cobras, hawks… Favourite Gladiators? Wolf, Cobra, Hawk… Talking of Wolf, I’ve always preferred the bad guys, and Wolf was the baddest.

The show was just so cool when I was a kid. *goes and relives some of his childhood memories on the intarweb*

I’ve just gone and signed a petition to get Gladiators put on DVD - so am I sad or what?

Originally published at DoC 3.0. You can comment here or there.

yodathedark: (Default)

How do you kill Xanthe Vel?
How do you kill Xanthe Vel?
How do you kill Xanthe Vel early in the morning?

With sharp stick and red-hot poker!
With sharp stick and red-hot poker!
With sharp stick and red-hot poker early in the morning!

What comes next for Xanthe Vel?
What comes next for Xanthe Vel?
What comes next for Xanthe Vel early in the morning?

Harm in the back from Vadek Kain!
Harm in the back from Vadek Kain!
Harm in the back from Vadek Kain early in the morning!

What do we do if he’s not dead yet?
What do we do if he’s not dead yet?
What do we do if he’s not dead yet early in the morning?

Anyone else want to add more verses? (Sung to the tune of “What do you do with a drunken sailor?”)

Originally published at DoC 3.0. You can comment here or there.

June 2011

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